The screaming match was loud and clear.
Everyone on our street knew,
"I am not going to Uni, mum and dad,
To myself, I am staying true."
"You've got to work twice as hard
To be considered half as good."
I heard this from the moment I was born,
It was the tenet of my childhood.
So if being black and having less,
Meant I had to do way more,
I was determined to skip a step
And let studying be no more.
I watched the spittle form in the corner
Of my dad's twitching mouth,
My mother's lowered head told me
This was fast going south.
Straightening my spine, I stood firm,
As my mind was quite resolute.
I was going to earn my way
In a paying institute.
I became a credit controller,
Crunching numbers all day long.
It was fun for a week,
And then I accepted I'd been wrong.
Day in, day out, it never changed,
It was as unvaried as a flat line.
I missed my life as a student.
How could I have been so asinine?
I was a teen, I thought I knew best
And ended up in a job quite gloomy.
Needless to say, it played out well,
I ended up going to uni.
We can be so confident and resolute as teenagers. Come to think of it, many of us still are many years later. This wonderful poem raises many questions, some of them unanswerable but one important consideration is whether we can be right even when we’re wrong and wrong even when we’re right? Maybe it’s all in the way we approach the situation?
Tara’s writing is thoughtful and thought-provoking. You’d do well to read more of it and you can on her website.